17 Months

Seventeen months today since Josh left this world. I cried a lot of tears last night and today.

I explained in my grief support group tonight that some folks think that grief is something that can just be "set aside" and then "picked back up" from time to time. The truth is that grief is now a part of me. Just as I could not possibly cut off an arm or a leg, I can't just cut off the grief. For the grief is me. It is a part of the whole. To accept me, one has to accept the grief that I own.